The Miracle of Teddy Bear

just when i thought i'm fully prepared to watch this series(mentally and emotionally) i wasn't expecting for this series to be ended this way😭 i mean i invested too much feelings for Nut and Tofu to be the endgame i wasn't aware that Tofu would really choose the decision that he had chosen..😭😭

I started watching this series not knowing it's a BL drama, seeing the title I thought its gonna be like the ted movie or something. Initially I had a notion that's it's just a series with some gay romance. But damn!! Tofu and Nut hit different. Tofu was such a cute and loving solace for Nut who's desolate and ill-tempered. Just like how a teddy bear is to one. The idea is fascinating. The story also focused on a lot of issues with an engaging screenplay and some exceptional performances from the leads. All the characterizations were good and it was a heartwarming watch indeed. The background music was such a bliss and beautifully complemented the scenes. In the last episode things were rushed only to lead to an unsatisfying ending. Although such an ending was long anticipated I still hoped they had something in store for nut and tofu to be the endgame. But it was devastating to see when poor tofu decides to sacrifice himself as justice for Tarn. I wish the miracle of teddy bear was tofu remaining human for the rest of his life and be with nut forever and let the fate decide itself for Tarn. Yeah tofu came into existence bcuz of tarn's love for nut and all tarn wished was nut to be happy despite not ending up with him. And that wish somehow came true through the teddy bear he gifted. Isn't that teddy bear turning into a human and bring happiness in nut's miserable life by giving his love, warmth, care and everything a miracle itself? Why that miracle should ceast to exist only to bring an another so-called miracle as the story depicts? What it has to do with tarn waking up from his coma and tofu dying? Hasn't Nut already moved on from Tarn even though he missed him. He didn't even try looking for him all those years. Nut himself was reassuring tofu by choosing him over tarn everytime. The ending would have made more sense had nut weren't able to move on from Tarn and the relationship between him and tofu was just platonic. I don't see how he could get back to his ex without any reservations after being so much in love with tofu. The scene where nut cries singing in front of tofu's photo in temple just tugged at my heartstrings. Wish they've shown more of nut mourning over tofu or reminiscing his memories with him. Felt nut managed to get over tofu so soon and revive his relationship with tarn just like that. It doesn't justify the deep relationship he had with tofu. Like he wouldn't miss tofu as much as he have got his ex back in his life now. And even worse, when tarn express his wish to marry nut he immediately agrees saying "My heart already married you a long time ago" Like wtf? This dialogue felt out of place and makes his relationship he had all this time with tofu seem meaningless. Suddenly they try to prioritise the love between nut and tarn just to make the ending seem reasonable. The teddy bear bracelet tofu bought for nut which he didn't happen to give? Why that part is missed?? Although tofu turned back to his bear form he would still have feelings of a human. But it is shown poor tofu had let go of his feelings now in the name of sacrifice. All along the story tofu wanted to be with nut and vice versa. I didn't like the abrupt transition of characters be it nut or tofu. The ending was a big letdown and I could never come to terms with it. I would just like to pretend the show ended in the episode 15.